We just returned from an amazing time away with family and I have to thank my incredible husband for making it all happen. He went above and beyond to create lasting memories for our crew so that over the next few months when I’m hooked up to machines at the hospital I’ll have those to dwell on. I’m so grateful to have a spouse who is ALL IN and who gets it.
It’s those sweet smiling faces that will help me get through the next phase of this journey. Tomorrow, August 1st, begins my chemo journey. I don’t know how I really feel about it yet because I’m still unpacking and washing clothes from our trip. What a blessed distraction. But I do know that as soon as Trevor and I got home today (thanks for picking us up at the airport, mom!), we hit the ground running to pick up my ‘cold caps’ and get a tutorial on how to use them. Now we ALL know that re-entry after family vacation is tough (can I get an amen, moms?), but picking up THIS upon my return to Dallas makes me think I’ve reached an all time low in that department.
Nothing says ‘Welcome Home’ like a cooler filled with cold caps and a goodie bag. Yippee. I’m just praying I don’t look in that bag and find a t-shirt that says, ‘I went through chemo and all I got was this lousy shirt.’
My sister, Jennifer, was kind enough to go pick up the dry ice required to fill the chemo cold cap cooler with before we got home today.
No one told her it would be in a warehouse with loads of truckers. Not even me. Good thing she fit right in. Then they told her they were out of pellets and she’d have to go to a different dry ice company. They warned her that it was in a sketchy part of town, however, then gave her the address. Jen giggled when she figured out it was in the neighborhood where we grew up (shout out to the OC). If being sketchy is wrong, I don’t want to be right.
When Jen sent me this pic of the second location, however, I tried not to panic. Here I am thinking that the whole process I’ve pinned my hopes on to save my hair is in the hands of the BACON EQUIPMENT CO., which apparently also sells Fire Extinguishers. If worse comes to worse, at least I know I won’t go hungry or suffer from severe burns.
All that to say is that my Chemo Cold Cap cooler now has two new friends (the other one is behind my dog, who has literally not left my side since I got home which is another story for another time) filled with dry ice for tomorrow.
My house looks like it is one cooler shy of chaperoning a kindergarten field trip to the zoo complete with sack lunches. IF.ONLY.
The schedule for tomorrow looks like this:
10:30 – blood draw
11:00 – appointment with oncologist
11:30 – chemo process begins (this should last approximately 3-4 hours total)
During chemo, my cap will be changed out appoximately every 20 minutes (each time with a new freezing cap – YIKES). After I finish chemo, I will need to continue cold capping for 4 hours afterwards. So tomorrow’s pretty much going to stink, let’s be honest.
But the Lord has been faithful thus far, and I expect nothing less tomorrow. Just today my friend Aly left this on my front porch in preparation for the next chapter of my story.
Yes, it made me bawl like a baby. But it also just touched my heart in the deepest way possible. I wish so badly Jen was here to sit with me tomorrow, just as I had done with her so many times. But just as the blanket says, I WILL fight in her memory and I WILL beat this thing. And I know 100% the Lord will give me everything I need to do so. Like friends just like Aly.
I would love for you to pray for me if you think of it tomorrow. The chemo process is bound to not only be physically difficult, but also emotionally difficult. Thankfully, my family and a few friends will be going with me to Baylor. My best friend from Boston, Kim, also flew in just to be here for tomorrow. I may need a lot more kleenex by the end of the day because I already feel so overwhelmed with loved. Send me texts, send me emojis, etc. I will need every ounce of strength just to endure the cold capping process, not to mention this little thing called CHEMO and its fun side effects.
And those that have been following my story will not be surprised that my friend Stephanie will be undergoing her double mastectomy the day after tomorrow (August 2nd). Not only do we like to dress alike, but apparently we like to cancer alike too. Please keep her in your prayers as well. This is such a surreal process, but we both know the Lord is in control and we trust that He will use OUR stories to tell of HIS good news.
We gathered with some of Steph’s friends tonight to pray for her upcoming surgery, and one of them made these amazing pink rice krispy treats. It’s the little things that sometimes mean the most.
Until next time…much love to you all & make every day count,
“But the Lord is faithful, and he will strengthen you and protect you…” 2 Thessalonians 3:3